I know I haven’t written much lately, life is just so hectic for me. The doctors (specialists) have been running me ragged, so when I have down time, I am DOWN. Just this month alone I have to make 6 trips out of town to doctors…endocrinologist, pain management, neuro-surgeon, psychiatrist, joy joy. It’s wearing my [...]

D and I have been talking about things the last few days. Life, love, intolerance, people, etc. One thing she said to me that had really stuck in my brain is how some people could interpret the things I write as me wanting pity/sympathy or maybe even attention. She gets me, my kids get me, [...]

  Today is your birthday and I miss you SO bad. I didn’t talk about it to anyone today, I was just reflective, thinking about you. Your voice, your hugs, the way you smelled…your laugh, the way you loved me. OH MY GOD I miss you, I miss you soooo terribly. My heart aches for [...]

  All of my life I’ve felt I don’t BELONG anywhere. I’m so different, so unlike anyone else I’ve ever met…I don’t fit in with society, I don’t fit in with my family. I often wonder why my Mom had me, why not just abort me. The ONLY time I ever felt like I belonged [...]

Another year, another birthday. Today I woke up in awe that I MADE IT to another birthday. I have been living with a chronic cancer (Chronic Myeloid Leukemia) for the past 10 years or so. It kind of sucks to live with a chronic cancer, because you linger, you struggle, you go through treatment after [...]