I am going to rant, so look out…haha!
I am sick of drama. Sick to death of it. And I am doubly sick of people trying to drag me into it! STOP IT, I don’t want it nor need it! Yeah it’s Facebook drama, *le sigh*, I went back to Facebook for my wife..not to be sucked into stupid drama. I got news for people trying to drag me into it. I will side with my WIFE and my SIS-IN-LAW every time..unless they are HORRIBLY wrong and in this case, they were NOT. They had every right to say the things they did.
The other drama that started with D was justified as well, and then she gets attacked by so-called friends, WTF is up with that? She simply stated she didn’t want to be on a mailing list and all hell breaks loose? People have resorted to being childish and “choosing sides”, WHY? What’s the purpose, do you REALLY want to possibly ruin friendships that are more than 30 years old?
Speaking of 30 year + friendship. My “friend” Steve, you remember, the one who left me this time last year after being my best friend since we were 9 years old has come back into my life. He just expects it all to go back to normal? WTF? Does he REALLY expect me to just say “OMG, Steve you are back in my life…..YAY, let’s be bestest friends again!!!”. After what you did to me Steve, I don’t know if I can trust you. Do I love you? Well, of course, you were a part of my life for pretty much my WHOLE life. We went through good and bad times together. I TRUSTED YOU with my life. But, YOU are the one who walked away from me. You are the one who lost his mind and did the shit to me you did. I didn’t ASK to be hurt by you. I only wanted us to be like we always were. Do I want your friendship back? Part of me does, part of me doesn’t know what to do. I am conflicted and quite frankly a bit PISSED that you come back a year later….I NEEDED you this past year. You were SUPPOSE to be my dialysis helper, yet you ran off and left ALL the burden of EVERYTHING on Kevin. How fair is THAT, Steve? Huh? NOT fair at all!! So now that I am in a routine of dialysis and other things, you want to waltz back in? You should have been here all along, when things were HARD! I just don’t know Steve….can I trust you? Or are you going to fuck me six ways to Sunday again? *SIGH*
And “Dad”, you fucking asshole, GO AWAY! I know I keep saying that, but the man is a sociopathic stalker who can’t leave me alone! He called me the other day, telling me he “owned” me and has since I was born. “Remember who owns you.” What the FUCK? YOU do NOT own me….I am NOT your “boyfriend” *pukes in my mouth a little*…Get over it, go away and leave me alone. Stop stalking me, stop following me, stop calling me. YOU ARE A SICK, perverted, son raping, son beating, son torturing BASTARD!
Ok I need to take a break, I am upset and shaking and my hands hurt too much to type.
STOP THE DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sometimes I have found that lost friendships, when forced into being ‘re-found’ become noticeably irrevocable. It’s very rare that people who split up from a very trust-based, loving relationship can come to trust again… and certainly not easily. If we lived ‘the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind’ lives, then maybe we could allow these relationships to flourish, but we do not have shock treatments to erase the bad and leave the good..so, we end up remembering. Before we know it, the memory becomes the new resentment, and that starts to eat away at the hope for a fresh new beginning. Damage done is often times permanent. We can hope against all odds, but only time will tell if a relationship can be repaired. From my experience, all the rose tinted glasses in the world can’t make a bad memory look better.
As for the drama…I’m always ready to leave it behind. I’ve become that kind of person… If it gets to me enough, I’m out, no questions asked. Simply an ‘eat my dust’ sign left where I used to be.
And yes, the psycho. Oh how I look forward to the day when he gets his. ‘Owns’ you. God… does he realize you tape his conversations? Wow… the evidence does stack up… geesh.
I love you.
I don’t know the full story on the FB situation,Only what I happen to see on the wall from time to time. Both “D” & “G’ are idolized by these people,But they forget that they have moved on with there lives.Sure,Nostalgia is fun,But the option was there to ask first. I have ALOT of pictures,I hope will never see the light of day.Just because that person owns them,Doesn’t mean it can just be shown to everyone without my consent.
Thats the blessing of the internet,You hold all the cards.
Don’t let this bother you so much.You have the control here,to make this go away.You shouldn’t have to hide all the time and cancel everything. Just eliminate the problem
Now as far as Steve….Baby steps ! Don’t let him in so fast,Make him earn your trust.
“Dad”-You know when your dying,and they say you see a light at the end of the tunnel? Yours will be a flame! You better change your ways now.Cause soon, Very soon ! Your gonna need loved ones around to take care of you,As you get older and weaker.
You better hope that day never comes,Cause your F**ked !
I hear you! We have been around for too long, and been through too much to want more drama in our lives. As for friendship, if you’re not around when it gets hard, if you’re only there for the good and easy times, then you’re not a true friend. As for your “dad” he should know there is now an army around you. Of people that love you and trust you and will rise up at a moment’s notice to remove him from this earth. He does not own you, never has and never will. Much love!